The Life Tales of Edwina

Teruntuk kamu.. Hai, how's life? Haha, terdengar lucu. Lucu, bagaimana cara semesta menciptakan skenario untuk kita. Sekian banyak purnama, bak puisi di film AADC, setelah kejadian yang seharusnya tak patut diingat oleh ingatanmu. Seperti apa yang memang aku yakini, kamu dihadirkan kembali. Terima kasih.. Setidaknya aku ingin merekam apa yang telah terjadi beberapa waktu belakangan ini, selagi aku dan kamu masih ingat, paling tidak aku ingin membekukannya lewat tulisan ini. Toh ingatan manusia terbatas, tapi tidak dengan "tulisan". That's why I love words, seperti yang kita pernah debatkan, I love words, but you said you love acts more. Nevermind :) Selagi kita masih mengingat perasaan ini. Tidak ada yang tau, hati manusia mudah berubah. Semoga kita akan selalu sama, seperti saat ini, sampai nanti. Entah apa hanya aku saja yang merasa ini masih seperti mimpi, atau kamu merasakannya juga? Semoga kita termasuk golongan yang "saling", ya?.. Aku masih merasa ...

"The saddest thing in the whole wide world is the word "almost" He was almost in love She was almost good for him He almost stopped her She almost waited it He almost lived They almost made it .." It will and was never gone. My feeling towards you will stay unexpressed and unsaid. I know, I have no right to coming to you, I'm not brave enough to saying I was sorry. I dont know what a kind of karma that was gave or will given to me, but maybe I know this one is literally my karma. I say, you may start laughing at me right now. After all this time, I do realize that I always love the way you love me. I always love your eyes, the way you looked at in the eye of person that you love. The way you've expressed it altough you never say it infront of me by a words. I know you're bad on words. And last but not least, I realized that you're the person who stayed the most longer on my mind. Every single times. I do love you without knowing how, ...

Sometimes, second chances just not available for everyone who might deserve it, even they're really want it. Everybody in this world know that our planet ain't fair enough to be lived. We know sure about that. Life circle just won't stop on their best position, everybody gonna feel the pain, hurt each other, may forgive or not, may forget it or not, loving, caring, dissapointing each other, rich, poor, healthy, sick, born, die, happy or sad, take and give, get or loss. Just like that. What we must to do is just appreciate that moments and keep it flow so we will not get any regret or guilty feeling about that. But, if they're wont work like what we've planned, make it sure to rearrange them. We may decide to just moving on or stuck with it, to forget it or keep it works. Things may happened with their own reason. *book closed*